It’s easy to get discouraged in Jiu Jitsu. I can feel my own potential for discouragement, and I can see it by how people find my blog. Just this past month, at least 5 people found my blog because they felt their jiu jitsu was inferior.
BJJ blue belt, I suck
Is it ok to feel lost when starting bJJ
I’m a blue belt in BJJ and still suck
Struggling BJJ white belt
BJJ getting tapped by lower belts
I can’t seem to remember anything I learned in BJJ!
It’s helpful to know what your triggers are. I’ll often feel that way when I get online and the women in the boards say things like “If a dude came in and thought he could just smash me, I’d triangle him” or “I’d just choke him.” Then I think “Dang, I must suck, because I can’t seem to pull off a single submission,” or “Why aren’t I better? Why do I keep getting smashed by white belts?” And this cycle of self doubt continues.
These are normal feelings, especially when you compare yourself to others. When I compare myself to others, this is how I start feeling, and it sucks. I’m NOT very athletic, I’m 36, inflexible, I have a difficult time making things stick. Honestly, I’m not as bad as I think I am – I DO get some submissions, but when I’m in a cycle of self doubt, I don’t recognize my accomplishments, and instead, just focus on the negatives. The interesting thing – these are the exact same things I hear in language students who are too shy to speak in class. Self doubt is NEVER helpful.
• No one can make you feel inferior without your consent. -Eleanor Roosevelt
The Parttime Grappler is Liam, a statistician. He wrote a fantastic article about this very thing – comparing yourself to others, in this article: Comparing Your Skill To Peers. The Danger of Small Samples. He reiterates this fact, and in it he says:
The fact of the matter is that you are learning your chosen skill just fine. There is much danger in comparing yourself to others and, in all honesty, it’s kind of rude. The example above shows that your performance doesn’t change so you are, in essence, simple expressing envy at the success of your peers.
I feel MUCH happier in BJJ when I, instead, compare myself to where I’ve come from. I look at the progress I’m making, I grasp at small positives and rejoice in them. I know that even if I’m sucky, so long as I consistently train jiu jitsu, I WILL improve, and barring major injury, I CAN make it to black belt.
If you focus on self-doubt, it’s too easy to feel overwhelmed. If you focus on getting onto the mats consistently, work on your jiu jitsu, it WILL come. To every white belt who has worried: I’ve been doing BJJ for X months and I’m still not good, my answer is OF COURSE YOU AREN’T! Everyone sucks at the beginning. JIU JITSU IS HARD!
So no, sucky white and blue belts, you are not alone. A lot of people are plagued with self doubt about their jiu jitsu skills (or lack thereof). But the key is to stick to it, ESPECIALLY if it’s hard. And as a woman in this sport, I feel even more determined to stick with it. We are so few already – I don’t want to be just another washed out blue belt. If I am the worst in class – does it REALLY matter? Someone’s got to take that roll -and perhaps it’s not because I’m bad, but because they’re better. Them being good does not mean that I suck.
• You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do.
-Eleanor Roosevelt
Have you been suffering from a BJJ inferiority complex? What has been helpful for YOU as you battle with it? And – give some self-love talk!
My solution is to focus on technique: i.e., pick a small selection of techniques, work on those for months/years, breaking them down into their component parts, progressing steadily through each of the steps and analysing my progress with those steps.
You can’t have an inferiority complex if you’re not comparing yourself to anybody else. I have never felt worthy of any of my belts, so I avoid thinking about it and just trust my instructor knows what they’re doing when handing out rank.
So far, every promotion has been a “crap, already? Can I give it back?” type experience. Hopefully I’ll actually be happy when the brown belt comes along, but based on past experience, I doubt it. 😉
I have to say I don’t personally find self-love useful, but that’s probably a personality thing. I find it much more useful to focus on what I’m doing wrong than what I’m doing right, though I’ve heard plenty of reasonable arguments for the opposite approach.
Yes! I also feel like – hey – it’s on my instructor. If he gives it to me, it’s because I deserve it. Ultimately it’s his responsibility.
slidey, I started training again after more than a year off due to an injury. Been training for only 4 months (3x per week) before the injury and when I came back and rolled, I got the surprise of my life when my professor gave me a stripe. I politely said I got submitted all night by even beginners (but bigger guys) and I’m just training for barely 2 weeks., so you see there’s this hesitation on my part to accept the stripe, but I thought he knows best and I don’t want to be disrespectful, so I accepted it, but to be honest, I don’t think I deserve that stripe at this point. I know a lot of techniques, but can’t apply them properly during rolling, and I’m getting overpowered and man-handled by guys bigger and stronger than me but with skills a notch lower than I have.
So in my opinion, that stripe on my belt is actually a PRESSURE for me to perform better, and frustration comes when I can’t. If only I can give it back, I’m willing to wait for 7-8 months of constant rolling anyway to get it…
Hahaha don’t worry about it. At some schools, stripes mean different things. For example, perhaps to your coach it means that you’re not a DANGEROUS beginner. Or perhaps he sees diligence or an excellent attitude. In any case, you are an example of what you coach considers to be a one stripe white belt. (or are you a blue belt????)
In any case, I hope you deal with your own complex and just keep rolling! ^_^
Omg are you inside my head?? I just wrote about this on my own blog about a week ago. http://mamommyarchives.blogspot.com/2012/09/i-feel-silly-and-other-useless-emotions.html
Hahaha hey thanks for leaving a comment – I don’t know that I had read your blog before!
I wish I could tell you that this got better, but it definitely, definitely doesn’t, haha. I take a different tack than you to deal with feeling inferior to my peers; like slideyfoot, I don’t find self-love very useful, I’m more of the “figure out what’s wrong and fix it” type. I actually recently wrote an article about how my solution is to be kind of an arrogant ass when it comes to walking onto the mat, because I find that my skills follow.
…That doesn’t mean that I’m not crying in the bathroom after every single rotation sparring/king of the mat drill during competition class. Because that definitely happens every day.
For me, I’m 36 and accepting of myself. When I stand back and think about it, I’m amazed at how much physical activity I’m doing compared to what I had been doing. So it’s easy to give myself a lot of self – love, and truthfully, I’m okay being the slow gal. I definitely have moments of frustration and hand wringing, but I definitely can’t play off arrogant.
BJJ blue belt, I suck
Is it ok to feel lost when starting bJJ
I’m a blue belt in BJJ and still suck
Struggling BJJ white belt
BJJ getting tapped by lower belts
I can’t seem to remember anything I learned in BJJ!
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All of those are my search terms. I confess.
Hahahahaha I love it. I can’t believe I missed this comment.
I loved this so much I included a link to it in my own post about the same subject. Check it out. 🙂
http://bjjgrappling.com/resilience
Cool cool! Thank you!
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I know this post is a few months old but I just found it and wanted to say thank you for writing it. I found your blog by searching “white belt, I’m terrible” Ha!Ha! I am 34, female and started taking jiu jitsu about ten weeks ago and have been feeling pretty bad about myself, feeling old and ridiculous and a little bit like I was not cut out for it. But I do love it so I will keep at it. Your post was just the encouragement that I needed to get over last night’s bruised pride…and ribs. Thanks!
I love old, ridiculous people! I am one myself! I just reset my goals and expectations. How awesome it is that you are in your 30s and exercising! How awesome it is that you’ve challenged yourself! How awesome it is that you’re outside your comfort zone!
CONGRATULATIONS!!!
>.< I hate to say it but I think there are a lot of instructors that don't give out belts "appropriately" in my opinion. Especially here in Korea. I feel like I've seen too many belts handed out or not handed out for the wrong reasons. That being said, if you are the sucky one in the class, I think the best way to improve is to be proactive in finding strategies and moves. If you wait for the teacher to show you how to break a closed guard in class, you are going to be stuck in everyone's guard for like a month until the teacher gets around to showing it. It's better to research online and try stuff out or find someone who is particularly good at where you are getting stuck. Most people love teaching what they are really good at and 90% of bjj is learning from your peers.
I completely agree that it’s always good to be responsible for your own learning. On Monday I worked on a knee on belly drill. Consistently people in our class work on things after class together. You often see people drilling together.
However, even with that, it’s still possible that you’ll be the suckiest – and that’s cool with me. ^_^ I DON’T think I’m the suckiest in class, but I’m definitely not the best.
I like this reply of yours. I think I’m one of the suckiest student in my school, perhaps in top 3, lol. I’m cool with being submitted, it’s part of learning, and I’ve come to terms with my ego, what with my size and strength not being a factor in rolling (i’m the smallest guy in the gym).
Cool cool. It’s great when you can change your bjj mindset, I think.
Have you checked out Emily Kwok’s “How to defeat the bigger, stronger opponent using Brazilian Jiu Jitsu?” really great dvd.
Great post, really helped me and I forwarded it to a friend that fell into the same mindset this week.
I’ve been a blue belt for 2 months and really felt down, being the newest blue belt (and one of the smaller guys) in my gym everyone I rolled with in the Advanced classes were 60+ pounds heavier with 4+ months more training than me. Horrible 2 months of just trying to survive.
Then I randomly went back to a Fundamentals class and got to roll with people that had only been doing it a month or two. It was an amazing burst of confidence to see and feel where they currently were (which is where I was only 8-9 months ago) compared to what I had learned and could do now.
It’s so great looking back and seeing what you’ve accomplished. I’m really glad you had the experience and that it helped you get back to a better mindset.
A mindset that helps me from perceiving a day as crappy is to alter my definition of success. Submissions are not the be-all-end-all of success. They’re just the cherry on top of the multi-layered cake that is Jiu-Jitsu. What I’m really focusing on when rolling is using specific techniques that the instructor has shown us. Fortunately, this can be done from any position, whether I’m winning or losing. If I’m having a terrible day and I’m being smashed in side control, I have a really good opportunity to work on survival and escapes. Conversely, if I’m having a great day, I might focus on some more offensive techniques. The important thing is that I’m using the techniques that I’ve learned, no matter where my body happens to be. Walking away from class, I try to remind myself of the specific techniques I pulled off and take that away as my victory.
I find that comparing oneself to others in class isn’t a great way to judge one’s own progress. Your classmates aren’t a universal constant and should not be treated as such. As you’re improving, so is everyone else around you (or at least the people you should care about). Trying to “catch up” can be like trying to finish a race with a moving finish line. I think that, if you’re going to think of yourself in relation to your classmates, it should be from the perspective of:
– I have xyz that I can learn from this person.
– This person is really good at x. If I want to get good at y technique, I should focus on z for the duration of our roll.
– This person’s gi has too much bling on it. Let’s see if I can tie him up with it.
We all have our strenghts and weaknesses, and nobody’s game is perfect in all areas.
I agree. If everyone is racing, it can be difficult to figure out how fact you’re moving. Mindset really does fix things. One of the things I was thinking about today:
Why do I get very frustrated when I am told to work on something I can’t do – such as moves from de la Riva? Why don’t I embrace – HEY I HAVE SOMETHING NEW TO LEARN? There’s definitely some ego in play and I remember having that “OMFG I FEEL LIKE A DAMNED WHITE BELT AGAIN! I’m A BLUUUUUE BELT!!! I KNOOOOOW STUFF!” Then I realized it was ridiculous. >_< No one is immune, I think.
NOOOOO don't hate on bling-y gis! ^_^
I’m really just jealous that I’m not cool enough to look good in a gi with a ton of embroidery and some Louis Vuitton print on the inside. Maybe someday…
Well THAT was totally obvious to me!
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I am a brown belt and have the same feelings! True. At the gym I train at I feel good….not great but flow decently. I sporatically go to another to train at an affiliated gym cause its closer but I have a hard time relaxing. No relaxing….no flowing and the transitions become harder or don’t happen at all. This weekend I got tapped by a good purple and a black…..didn’t tap anyone I don’t think! Hahaha. I get discouraged but always continue. Dont quit! It reminds me of a story my teacher told me once….
He was teaching for Renzo and told Renzo “man this guys not getting it. It doesn’t look good for him.” To which Renzo replied ” give him time he will get better.”
That guy was Roger Gracie.
Don’t stop
You know, I appreciate that you shared that. It sometimes feels like you get magical powers in bjj the further up you go, and eventually stop having frustrating days. I don’t think that’s realistic for me. I’m just an ordinary Jane who plans to manage my expectations.
Mutant powers would rock, tho.
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Great piece. Just what I needed 🙂
I just found this…YES!! Thank you for writing this!! Exactly what I needed to read!! I don’t know if I suck or if it’s me being 50 lbs lighter then the next smallest person in my class…or both! Ha! Thanks for this…
Jeanine! I’m checking in with you! How are you still feeling? Still overwhelmingly sucky or have you gotten over that? Are you still training?
Hi! A little late in replying…but I’m still training! Less “I suck” days then before, and a blue belt to boot! Thanks for the reply…now, off to train! 😉
Hello, I really enjoy your blog. I started bjj on my 37th birthday after putting it off for a couple years. I chose an academy 25 minutes away from my house instead of one 5 minutes away. The one closer seemed more mma oriented only training in Gi twice a week. The one I chose is all Gi and isa Rilion Gracie Academy, my instructor is a Black Belt under Mr. Gracie. He is nice and all but really seems to have his favorites. Keep in mind all but three students are white belts, those three being blue belts. He seems to hand out stripes to his “favorites” even when they haven’t been attending regularly. I honestly could care less about getting stripes or promotion at this time my concern is that he isn’t paying enough attention to the people who need guidance the most. Maybe I should trust what he is doing and be patient. I just feel like What we are drilling is not sticking because after class I have forgotten what we drilled.
Hi Lemur! Congrats on choosing this fantastic obsession!
A note on instructors: first, they are human beings. Some human beings suck, others don’t. You’re a white belt, and so those stripes might feel Really Important to you. I will promise you this: in the future, you will realize those stripes basically mean nothing, and you’ll wonder why you worried about it at all.
Let’s say that those students ARE his favorite. One one hand, it’s VERY possible he sees something that you don’t. In fact, this is much more likely. Perhaps his stripes are because now they’re no longer flailing or they can remember the drills, or any other random reason. It might be that they are his favorites because they show a lot of potential. Maybe they “need” those stripes to keep them coming. Who knows.
On the other hand: maybe he is a shitty instructor. Maybe he really is tossing out stripes to just his buddies. Here’s the thing: it only REALLY matters when you get to purple belt. Honestly, I’m a shitty 4-stripe blue. If I were to grade myself I’d maybe give myself 1 stripe. MAYBE. But it is what it is. I didn’t grade me – my instructor did. When it comes down to it, those people put his reputation on the line. If he IS promoting too quickly, Bad Stuff will happen in the end.
HOWEVER, stripes REALLY REALLY REALLY don’t matter, and white belt stripes matter the least.
Back to the other things: it’s super common for people to not remember what was just learned. This is not just true in BJJ, but also in language classes. I still will sometimes forget what I JUST learned. Yes, just be patient. Instead of thinking that “Hey, I LEARNED this or that,” thing more like you got a preview for it, and eventually you will learn it. You’re still a baby white belt. Everything right now is (and should be) a preview. Once things start sticking is when you’re hitting blue belt level in my opinion.
It’s also possible he’s great at jiu jitsu and sucks at being a teacher. There are lots of people like that out there. 🙂
Don’t sweat it – go to class, enjoy the process, and please please ENJOY the little to no pressure that comes from being a white belt! Literally you can only meet or exceed standards! How cool is that!
Thanks for that insight! I think almost everyone including myself get caught up in the whole belt rank thing instead of focusing on what’s really important. I have to constantly remind myself of that. It seems to be an unfortunate distraction. What is really comes down to is people being concerned with how others perceive them.
Agreed. I have an idea for a blog post that came from a uni student’s interaction with me. Sometimes you have to remind yourself – that is ego talking. 🙁
Jiujiu, I just wanted to say thank you for this post and I hope you keep on writing. I’m a bigger girl training bjj and I got my blue belt a bit more than a year ago, but have nagging (minor) injuries that have impaired my ability to spar properly. That, plus work going crazy, means, every time I step back on the mats, I feel like an noobish drooling idiot who is trying to walk through jelly (training only once every couple of weeks). It’s hard, and I kept feeling like I should stop training because I’m just so bad I make the school look bad. (all in my head by the way – no one in my gym ever said anything like that) And when I feel like I should quit, I look up these posts of yours and squeeze out enough courage to step back on. 🙂 Thank you!
Wow – this article got two comments in one week! I’m so happy to have you here. I hope to see you around more. (note to self: publish your dang thoughts, self!) I remember the thought I had “Someone HAS to be the worst, so it may as well be me! I’ll make everyone feel so much better about themselves!” hahaha. Now I’m teaching beginners…how far I have come!! I NEVER would have thought I’d be at the point where an academy would ASK me to teach! Whaaat! 🙂
I’m so glad to hear that this has been good encouragement for you. It’s exactly what I’ve hoped my blog would be.
GOOD LUCK ON YOUR TRAINING!!! Quit if jiu jitsu is not a good fit for you. Keep doing jiu jitsu if it is simply difficult.
Looks like it has been a while since anyone commented on this. I actually think this should be more active.
I’m an overweight (used to be aaaaalmost obese) youngish guy, 24 years old, who started practicing BJJ about 3 months ago.
When I started, I was 128 kilos (don’t know how much it makes in pounds, I guess I should double it?), now I’m 106! And actually, thanks to my mestre, I’ve never had an inferiority complex on the mat, but I can understand why people might feel that way, since BJJ is really ,really, REALLY difficult to master. I doubt if anyone can completely master all the techniques.
For all those who have the will to change their lives in a better way but feel like they’re not up to the challenge: EVERYONE is! EVERY SINGLE PERSON is! I still tap out maybe 3-4 times each training, but my partners are nice enough to say: “You’ve started to resist, nicely done!”, or “Wow, I can apply a fully closed guard now, looks like you’ve really lost a lot of weight!”
Have faith in your partners, in your mestre, but most importantly, in yourself! Give yourself a year, and at the end, you will be appalled to see just how far you’ve become.
JiuJiu, please continue to be an inspiration to everyone.
Wow – this is the second comment on here in one week! Nice coincidence!
1 kilo is 2.2 lbs. This means you have lost around 50 lbs! FANTASTIC!! What is your eating plan like? It’s weird that when people would talk about weight, it seemed like they pushed exercise MORE than a better eating plan. Except – if you eat a bagel walking into Planet Fitness, and eat a bagel walking out, guaranteed you’ve eaten more than you burned off! What the heck!
Did you read my article “To the Fat Person Googling Jiu Jitsu“? For me, the anxiety of being a BIG person doing BJJ was often more than my anxiety of just doing BJJ. There were a lot of hidden pitfalls I hadn’t considered before.
I completely agree with you – if you quit early, you will never show improvement. If you give it a year, you will amaze yourself!!
CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR TRAINING! And thanks for the super kind words! 🙂
I just started Bjj, and i feel so much of what you’ve written. I’m almost in my third month. I can’t seem to get a submission, thougj i get caught plenty. I don”t get it. I have some strength, so flexibility, and i try my best to listen to what i am told. I watch videos on Kimuras, Americanas, Triangle Chokes. One class i get close to hooking a Guillotine and the next, I seem more dumb than when i started. I don’t want to be a quitter but I think I might be wasting my time and money.
Hi Silver Soul, congratulations on starting jiu jitsu! I’m just starting to poke my head out of the sand after getting married, which is why this was stuck in the comment queue. From now on you’ll be auto-approved when you reply.
You have inspired me to write my next blog post. I really hope you’ll read it when it is up!
Thank you ? I needed that.
Thank you for this article! I needed to hear these words today. Sometimes I go and roll with a clear mind and I amaze myself, then other days I pick myself apart. I think it’s just part of the game (any game). This art has done wonders for who I am as a person and for that I am greatful. I know that I am a perfectionist in many ways, I am trying to let go of that with this sport and let it flow. This is a struggle for me and so today was one of those days that I was my biggest critic and here I am reading your article looking for encouragement, thanks again!
Hooray for the life-changing elements of jiu jitsu! I hope that you can be your biggest supporter rather than biggest critic. I hope you can give yourself mental high fives instead of mental gut-punches. There are always going to be people ready to tear you down – so be your own best friend.
I should write platitudes for nature photos to be put up in offices.
im also a newbie in training. My roll mate is much more heavier and bigger than me. We roll every training and i still suck but did consider our weight differences. And i feel so frustrated about it that i want to train everyday find another roll mate and pratice i cant perform any submission coz every time we roll i get lost. I love bjj and im so frustrated.
Hey newbie! Focus on positions. Focus on what to do in that situation. Don’t worry yet about submissions, but instead focus on “Am I in a good position? What should I do here?” For example, a submission-focused newbie might try to choke me while she is in my guard! what the what?! Nope! Or they’ll have mount but then dive for an armbar and lose both the submission and the position.
Be easy on yourself! It’s a long-con. 🙂