I am sabotaging myself. Daily. I am hurting myself every day and I can’t seem to stop. I know better, but I can’t stop. It’s a horrible compulsion.
I don’t get enough sleep.
Every night I find myself sucked into the Internet or into an episode of a television show (right now it’s Millennium. NO SPOILERS! I’m only 10 episodes in :)). Or cross stitching to a tv show–that’s my other hobby.
Regardless–I can’t seem to make myself go to sleep early. And by early I mean at a reasonable time. This week I went to bed at 4am. I had only 3 or 3.5 hours of sleep. I actually needed coffee to function. What was I doing last night that warranted getting less than 4 hours of sleep? I was browsing the Internet. I was playing Spider Solitaire. I was checking my wordpress site stats. In other words: I WAS DOING NOTHING.
I KNOW that I need more sleep. I KNOW that if I went to sleep shortly after BJJ class that I would absorb more of the information. And yet night after night I find myself going to bed later and later and being more and more exhausted at night. I think I need a good, old-fashioned challenge. In bed by midnight for a week. Okay, BJJ netizens, I’ll take that challenge. I’ll report back to all of you with my results.
But now that I’ve bared my heart and soul and weaknesses to you, please return the favor! How do you sabotage yourself?