Dear largely abandoned blog, how I’ve missed thee.
I have a confession. Lately, the magic has gone out of jiu jitsu. Perhaps it’s my work schedule, which has me on a bizarre inconsistent daily schedule, or perhaps it’s just the summer and the horrible humidity and my difficulties sleeping. Whatever it is, it’s been DAMN HARD to drag myself to the gym.
In fact, in the past two months I’ve only gone one or two times per week. 18 times. I think I did more classes than that on my jiu jitsu tour!
I almost didn’t make it today–I had a headache for most of the day. I talked to my friend Jason and he quoted Dune at me:
DOPE! Busted. (ps photochopped that screen image of Gurney just for you guys!)
That quote got me into the gym today. Yes, I still had my monster headache, and I felt queasy, but I was glad I was there. On my way to the gym I started looking at jiu jitsu as an important commitment in my life and what type of partner I want to be to jiu jitsu.
There are those who will commit when it is easy and fun. They’ll quit when it gets to be work or when it stops being so fun.
There are those who will commit when it is convenient–perhaps convenient because of schedules or proximity. If that changes they’ll quit.
There are those who will commit until something better comes along. Once that obsession moves, so will they.
I don’t want to be any of those people. I want to do jiu jitsu to get better. I want to do it because I want to be great at something. I want to do it because I love jiu jitsu. Yes, sometimes it is hard and sometimes I don’t feel good, and sometimes Ugly Betty seems like a much better choice, but if I care about my relationship with jiu jitsu, I have to put the time into it.
Because of my time off, my stamina is shot. I was going 3-5 times per week, and for two months solid it was 1 time per week. I am not a young athlete, and my body has been punishing me. One night a white belt got me in side control and I wanted to tap just because the pressure on my chest made me feel so claustrophobic. >_< I can’t just spring back like I used to. I get tired when I roll, and I have to sit out. In short, I almost feel like I’m starting over from scratch.
I’m in there to get in shape and improve. It’s not about measuring myself against anyone but myself. It’s about improving day to day, and even though my stamina isn’t as good as it was 4 months ago, it’s better today than it was 3 days ago. Even if that new white belt is putting up an awesome fight and I can’t pass his guard to save my life, it’s helping my jiu jitsu get better.
Here’s to beating those slumps. Here’s to doing something BECAUSE it’s worth doing, not just because it’s easy or fun or convenient. In ALL relationships there are ups and downs, but it doesn’t mean chuck it all when you’re down. It means dig deeper and find that strength inside yourself, turn off the Ugly Betty and get your tired butt to class. No excuses. Anything worth doing is worth sticking with, and worth a bit of inconvenience. Don’t let LAZINESS win. Pro athletes have tough days. They didn’t get to where they are because they gave into their feelings. They just did it. Concert pianists don’t get to where they are because they practiced when they felt like it. They committed to it and did it.
Now I ask you: what’s your favorite advice to give people when they ask for motivation? And, what keeps you motivated and going to the gym even when you are tired and lazy and REALLY want to watch Ugly Betty? Mine now is “Mood is a thing for cattle and making love and playing the baliset. It’s not for jiu jitsu.”
(Yeah, I’m on the last episode of the last season of Ugly Betty. I powered through it in the past month! LOVE UGLY BETTY OMGWTFBBQ!!!)